None of us understand it or why we do it, wait, maybe we do, but every reason is different. The fear, fear of being vulnerable, and approaching the unknown is scary.
Sometimes all we want to do is curl up in a cozy blanket on a rainy day and play sad love songs because we don’t know how to move forward. We get moody and take our inner anger out on those who are innocent. Dealing with our emotions is a process and takes time. Time that life just has to make space for, because it’s a part of growing up and learning about our self. No one can do it for us. I’ve found that in these confusing times praying to God and relying on Him for all of my needs has significantly helped give me hope again and take me out of my rut. I honestly don’t think I’ve ever really hid my emotions to the point where I know I am purposely faking a life to everyone around me. Although, I have gone through several occurrences of depressing moments when I thought I’d never see the other side. When you call on God He gives you peace like no other and if you let go He takes your confusion and makes it into understanding of His perfect plan for your life. He didn’t create us to confuse us, that is not His doing. God surrounds, comforts, and shows us His love every day. When you feel there is no hope left and begin to say you’re “good” with a brief fake smile, know God is right next to you. Call on His Holy Name and all of life’s problems will become small. The Creator of the universe does not fear our problems, He puts them to rest. He fixes us, wipes our tears, and shows us the sunrise every morning. I encourage you to cast all of your cares on Him. Let Him take your stress and confusion away and set you free.
I hope if you read this you know how much God loves you and He is always here for you. I believe someone who reads this post was meant to find it, I hope you found your answer. John 3:16.
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Have a beautiful day!
xoxo, Jasmine Grace